I'm exhausted. You know the feeling after a rush of adrenaline wears off? That's happened to me three times so far today.

Hurricane Alex is slamming the Mexico coast and will continue to head inward over the next few hours. While I feel awful for the people down there, here in the "Coastal Bend" (i.e. just inland of Corpus Christi) we're getting slammed with the righ-quadrant storm bands of this hurricane. That means lots of rain and possible tornadoes.

The thing is, I'm scared of quite a few things. I'd even go so far as to call myself a "scaredy cat" but, none of my fears amount to the terror I feel for tornadoes.

My tornado fear has been upgraded to phobia and it sucks.

We've had three separate tornado warnings today. Each warning made me lose my shit. I was left with my hands trembling, mouth dry, slight nausea and lightheadedness, running back and forth between the computer radar and the windows. The bathroom is prepped for me to drag the kids in there and I've been completely on edge all day long. Then, the warning expires and my adrenaline rush subsides. And, I'm left a little feverish and a lot tired. Dammit!

**I'm fully aware that part of my fear stems from being a control freak.

0007 is on his way home and I couldn't be happier. I've been doing a decent job hiding my freakouts from my kids but, I'm ready to lean on someone else. My blogfrog buddies have been great with the positive thoughts and prayers and my sister-in-law has been great over the phone all afternoon.

Most that know me are fully aware of my extreme paranoia and fear of storms like this. My mother-in-law texted me this morning to see if I was remaining calm. This was before the first band of storms hit us. I replied that I was already freaking out. Her response? "Let my grandkids out of the bathroom!"


Yes, I do get plenty ready to go in there and, if it was up to what my fear drive wants, the kids and I would have sat in that damn bathroom all day! I'm trying to remain a reasonable person but, I'm slowly losing that battle.

Did I mention that I hate this shit?

There are plenty of people being affected far worse than us and I totally feel for them, my heart goes out to them and I hope that everyone will be fine once this storm clears. So, if you are so inclined, go ahead and say a prayer or send some positive thinking in the direction of northeast Mexico, southeast TX and my house! And, you know, if you wanna pray for my sanity, I'd be okay with it!

I'll tell ya one thing. If I wake up surrounded by singing little people who claim I've killed some bitch with my house....I will freak the f--k out!